the only thing constant in the world is change.

hello universe (mental picture of hippies singing 'aquarius/let the sunshine in' by fifth dimensions) yeh.

my experience so farr has been a concoction of greats and not so's, stress yess and drama mama's, fly away highs and low hoe blows. some sadness but a certainty to come after it all - happiness.

change is the name of the game, anything you do in this life time affects course. course in the life you lead, course in your mind which leads to your perceptions and beliefs, course in action of how you react and do things. i guess thinking great things, can amount to doing amazing things, saying positive things gives reassurance and nurturing to the wounded;unsure;scared heart, random acts of goodness - a giving and adding to human kind, which always comes back to the genuine heart. when we capture the essence of our maker - how sweet is the fragrance. always changing and always growing, learning each day of what was given from him, God.. is an honour free for us all.

i'm on this cool encouraging cypher that is learning to see myself from eternity, hammering in truths so that in times of falter - i can scream the honest.FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE and not made as in manufactured perfection made, made in taiwan made, but MADE IN HIS IMAGE made. believing that is more than just knowing that. cos i was, you were - WE WERE!

drama mamaz cos i had to prepare for life without my amigo ana banana by my side anymore.lol - good life to you in canberra miss, play that man rugby you do and stay out of trouble.hehe - i actually didn't think it'll be this hard, all the unsung do's for me you did are at surface point. and i DID to a certain extent, take your ability to chill on life for granted. sometimes when i took it for hopeless-ness, you were actually being selfless. i learn from you, even when your not around. you deserve nothing but the best in the south east and west.... *k breathe* -- k back to me.lol

sadness that life could no longer wait on my procrastination and rolled on without my permission, bought it into life that seemingly gave way to happiness - blessing in disguise?! a winkaTHINK of readiness to turn the page, gives a faith which leads me on. growing as the nights turn into days, i am still on the journey... the walk...

life is important - and an old truth that cannot expire, it's definatly what you make of it.

keeping positive is a motivator - it works people.

my fly away high is family in every aspect in the term of the word.(makes sense in my head.lol) is always there, always!! *tear like my brother ben when he shared @ ana's 21st.lol*

nothings peachy just yet - but i believe the road to healing isn't easy as pie. and understanding THAT gives me comfort that it is attainable.

dramatic maybe - wonderfully and beautifully made. def yo! -- i am changing. (haha and who sang dreamgirls effie white.YOU)



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my own, not yours and open doors.

life is the never ending topic, a constant song - remade, re-sung, re-writen.. but only heard by mine. Living is and was never easy for some, and in the end the only one person accountable for mine is.. me.

today is still, and the outside of things is messy, frigid and uncontrolled. an old school associate/friend passed last sunday, and the burial; yesterday. crazy times it iz. with days like now i cant help but refer emotions, pain, suffering, empathy and sympathy felt - toward my own. i guess it is only in times like these, that a sudden spark of realisation hits - the importance of relationships, time spent on what we should be doing, - and what we shouldnt. the harsh awakening when someones door is closed.

thoughts..

there's always consequences to every action placed, i guess @ times we must be careful to smell the roses - but not to the point of complacency, moving forward and continually growing - but not to the point where we're simply too far ahead that all that is there behind us, is ourselves...

through loss, theres pain and suffering; tears and heartache. - unanswered questions, unanswered answers....

Today is still, and the outside of things is messy, frigid and uncontrolled. but in these very seconds, minutes, hours - im greatfully thankful. for lifes struggles, trials and tribulations - the continuum of ups and downs, - cos they testify to the fact that im still here... living!